I have not used a blog. 

So this is going to be like a journal to be able to vent off the garbage that goes on in life. 

Maybe if someone out there reads this and sees that everybody goes through different versions of the same life stuff and comes out the other side in one piece.

So I will begin with my ramble and see what comes of it.

2/27/2012

Here is a little about me.

I am over 50 and have one son, never been married and never wanted to be married.

Graduated high school and have had several years of college, some for work and some for fun.

I live on the west coast and my family lives on the east coast. I am buying my home and do not have financial troubles, I own two cars. I am a disabled vet. And have one 15 year old cat. I am about 30 pounds overweight and at this time I am very lazy about myself. I choose to not have very many people in my life. I don't trust or like too many people. So at this time I use a counselor for a friend and confidante. 

I work for a very large company that is in lots of financial problems. This is not what it makes the company difficult to work for,  the company has always been a difficult place to work for. Poor management, lack of respect for the employees, lots of favoritism, ass kissing, the union does not do it's job, too much gossip, no one held accountable for any of their actions. All kinds of crap like that.

 

I repair machines and equipment.

I expect alot from myself at work and that is where most my stress comes from.

I believe that I am supposed to go to work and do 8 hours, not stand around for the first two hours and talk to someone else and keep them from their work also. Or spend an hour eating cereal on the clock before I get my toolbox and start working.

I get my work do and then I don't hold up operations when they come in do start the machines up. Then I can mess around or do extra work.

I don't talk with most of the other people at work. Too much gossip and back stabbing. I also don't kiss ass with management. In other words I don't get along well with over 80% of the people at work and choose not to try to even get along with them.