2/29/12


Today was another good day in work, except I am interrupting the flow of the regular people on Tour 1. I get up and answer calls when it is not my turn, they like to alternate between themselves. I just want to be busy.


The guy that I was talking about yesterday is really sad. He never ever has anything to say that is good. Doom and gloom all the way. He is never ever wrong, and don't tell him that he is wrong, holy crap he freaks out and gets worse.


He makes me realize that I am a great person. I have a positive outlook compared to him. I Love my job but have a very difficult time with the other workers. It is me and not them. I will keep him in mind from now on.


I am going to call my trainer and get back to working out with her once a week. It is a little expensive at this time. But when I stop eating out I will be able to pay for her easily. And it will be much better for me. I feel so much more positive about myself today, just because of the grouchy guy at work. He is motivating me more everyday. Just think I have 5 more weeks on graveyard.


Instead of a friend I go to counseling, then it is all about me. I do this because I don't like to tell friends about my troubles and problems, usually they turn it around and make it all about them. And I don't get a chance to vent my problems. So it is easier for me to hire a friend and get the satisfaction that I want. 


I live by myself except for my fat old cat. It is so great to come home to silence.  I can do what I want for how long I want. I am the only one making any messes and the only one to clean them up when I want to.  This is the first time in 22 years that I have been truly alone. I love it. I know I am done with relationships, no more boyfriends.  I might try and find a friend to do somethings with, but they would have to be single with very little commitments.